Distractions.They're good, aren't they?Distractions. by xblackrose94x
This weekend has been full of great ones. And I've been doing great because of it.
My sister came out this weekend; so my mom, sister, and I all had a girls weekend.
Friday night we watched Bridesmaids when my aunt came over.
Then I watched Rent a little later, while my sister watched her shows on the computer and my mom went to bed.
After Rent was over (amazing movie~!!) I started cleaning my room, and my sister helped cuz she was sleeping with me for the night.
Around 4 we got done..lmao. My room is spotless now. My sister cut my bangs after I took a shower.
Then we went to bed at 5 or so.
Saturday morning we woke up at 11. My sister fixed my bangs and straightened my hair.
We went shopping for my cousin's daughters' birthday party. Then we went to get pumpkins.
My sister went to that party, and I stayed home with my mom and Krystle IM'd me to walk Molly with her.
So we did that, and I came home, debated whether to call my sister or not, and then she walked
I need to vent so bad.I just want to collapse. I don't want to be here anymore. I just want to curl up into a ball and fall into a sleep I'll never wake up from.I need to vent so bad. by xblackrose94x
I don't know what to do.
I feel like i'm rotting from the inside out.
I can act happy as hell around people so I don't upset them, but I don't know what to do.
I'm fucking balling my eyes out because i listened to http://youtu.be/OimL6AbnT1U & http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vaa3jbGhKr4
I used zakk as a rebound. I can't believe I did it. But after hours and hours of trying to understand why i was still upset about josh, I figured out I just used zakk.
Josh won't respond to anything I send him.
He blocked my house number..
Probably my cell phone too. I don't even care about that though, it doesn't work.
I just want an answer.
I feel like nobody knows me anymore.
Everyone that did, I don't talk to anymore.
The ones that I'm friends with, I fake a smile around at school.
I wish I knew what to do.
I'm slowly dying from it though.
There's one person that