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They're good, aren't they?
This weekend has been full of great ones. And I've been doing great because of it.
My sister came out this weekend; so my mom, sister, and I all had a girls weekend.
Friday night we watched Bridesmaids when my aunt came over.
Then I watched Rent a little later, while my sister watched her shows on the computer and my mom went to bed.
After Rent was over (amazing movie~!!) I started cleaning my room, and my sister helped cuz she was sleeping with me for the night.
Around 4 we got done..lmao. My room is spotless now. My sister cut my bangs after I took a shower.
Then we went to bed at 5 or so.
Saturday morning we woke up at 11. My sister fixed my bangs and straightened my hair.
We went shopping for my cousin's daughters' birthday party. Then we went to get pumpkins.
My sister went to that party, and I stayed home with my mom and Krystle IM'd me to walk Molly with her.
So we did that, and I came home, debated whether to call my sister or not, and then she walked in the door.
We did pumpkins, carved them and such. (Mine was a kitty and Harry Potter~..both turned out like shit. lmao, don't they always?)
We made pumpkin seeds~(nomnomnom!!) And then made some caramel apples :3
Then my mom got a call, I guess a girl from her old work missed her.
Her friend set her up with her dad. Who is younger than my mom lololol
He likes star trek and call of duty....
Hopefully he's a good guy.
My mom has a date with him on tuesday~ Yay? This is her first date since like...1992? (when my mom and dad were dating~ O.o)
Today, well....We hung out. Haha, watched movies and worked on my sister's college homework for her >o> Funnnn. eh?
But yeah.
Nice distracting weekend, that's what I needed.
(Warning. The rest is me ranting.....)
But here I am. Back to worrying he'll never respond.
I think I'm going to send him a letter...Is that crazy? :l
I'm going to. And If he doesn't respond to that....Well then I give up. I'll have to face the heart break eventually. But I don't think I'll get over him.
I can't do it.
I love him. So. Fucking. Much.
What am I going to do?
He stopped me from ending it so many times.
He saved my life so many times.
He kept my secrets.
He pulled me out of depression.
He made me smile.
He made me feel beautiful.
He told me that we'd make it.
Through this last year.
And then he ended it.
What did I do wrong?
That's all I want to know. And he won't tell me.
It's probably my fault for wanting to break up with him before.
I was scared....
I pushed him away.
I didn't know what to do without him.
I guess I can fill the void and keep smiling and telling myself I'll be okay.
But is that enough?
Will that actually make me happy?
I'm scared it wont.
I just want him to love me back again... For him to tell me what I did wrong. I'll fix it. I'll do anything to fix it.
Maybe he'll read this. He has a DA...But doesn't use it... What do I do to get his attention?
My phone is shut off.
Every phone I call from to his, gives me a busy signal.
He doesn't check facebook I don't think.
He wont respond to emails.
Will he respond to a letter? Maybe..I hope so. I'm gonna do it. I'll send him a hand written letter like I did once before... I hope he reads it.
This weekend has been full of great ones. And I've been doing great because of it.
My sister came out this weekend; so my mom, sister, and I all had a girls weekend.
Friday night we watched Bridesmaids when my aunt came over.
Then I watched Rent a little later, while my sister watched her shows on the computer and my mom went to bed.
After Rent was over (amazing movie~!!) I started cleaning my room, and my sister helped cuz she was sleeping with me for the night.
Around 4 we got done..lmao. My room is spotless now. My sister cut my bangs after I took a shower.
Then we went to bed at 5 or so.
Saturday morning we woke up at 11. My sister fixed my bangs and straightened my hair.
We went shopping for my cousin's daughters' birthday party. Then we went to get pumpkins.
My sister went to that party, and I stayed home with my mom and Krystle IM'd me to walk Molly with her.
So we did that, and I came home, debated whether to call my sister or not, and then she walked in the door.
We did pumpkins, carved them and such. (Mine was a kitty and Harry Potter~..both turned out like shit. lmao, don't they always?)
We made pumpkin seeds~(nomnomnom!!) And then made some caramel apples :3
Then my mom got a call, I guess a girl from her old work missed her.
Her friend set her up with her dad. Who is younger than my mom lololol
He likes star trek and call of duty....
Hopefully he's a good guy.
My mom has a date with him on tuesday~ Yay? This is her first date since like...1992? (when my mom and dad were dating~ O.o)
Today, well....We hung out. Haha, watched movies and worked on my sister's college homework for her >o> Funnnn. eh?
But yeah.
Nice distracting weekend, that's what I needed.
(Warning. The rest is me ranting.....)
But here I am. Back to worrying he'll never respond.
I think I'm going to send him a letter...Is that crazy? :l
I'm going to. And If he doesn't respond to that....Well then I give up. I'll have to face the heart break eventually. But I don't think I'll get over him.
I can't do it.
I love him. So. Fucking. Much.
What am I going to do?
He stopped me from ending it so many times.
He saved my life so many times.
He kept my secrets.
He pulled me out of depression.
He made me smile.
He made me feel beautiful.
He told me that we'd make it.
Through this last year.
And then he ended it.
What did I do wrong?
That's all I want to know. And he won't tell me.
It's probably my fault for wanting to break up with him before.
I was scared....
I pushed him away.
I didn't know what to do without him.
I guess I can fill the void and keep smiling and telling myself I'll be okay.
But is that enough?
Will that actually make me happy?
I'm scared it wont.
I just want him to love me back again... For him to tell me what I did wrong. I'll fix it. I'll do anything to fix it.
Maybe he'll read this. He has a DA...But doesn't use it... What do I do to get his attention?
My phone is shut off.
Every phone I call from to his, gives me a busy signal.
He doesn't check facebook I don't think.
He wont respond to emails.
Will he respond to a letter? Maybe..I hope so. I'm gonna do it. I'll send him a hand written letter like I did once before... I hope he reads it.
I need to vent so bad.
I just want to collapse. I don't want to be here anymore. I just want to curl up into a ball and fall into a sleep I'll never wake up from.
I don't know what to do.
I feel like i'm rotting from the inside out.
I can act happy as hell around people so I don't upset them, but I don't know what to do.
I'm fucking balling my eyes out because i listened to http://youtu.be/OimL6AbnT1U & http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vaa3jbGhKr4
I used zakk as a rebound. I can't believe I did it. But after hours and hours of trying to understand why i was still upset about josh, I figured out I just used zakk.
Josh won't respond to anything I send him.
He bl
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My life is 63% amazing.. Not really. :|
how amazing my life is:
[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[ ] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard
T 0 T A L: 5
[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/laptop in your room.
[x] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[ ] People don't/haven't use/used you for something
Aug 1 2011 (:
Today i realized how much I've been going crazy over fan art.
Not just Harry Potter, but sooo much more.
I finished the Merry gentry series last night, and i've been going insane thinking of drawing fan art of it. I NEED TO GET BETTER AT DRAWING IN ORDER TO DO THAT THOUGH.
My interview (go two journals back) is driving me insane too, because i keep thinking "I NEED TO GET BETTER BEFORE THEN! I NEED TO DRAW A BUNCH AND DO A BUNCH OF ART AND .. AND ..... AND........ AND~
I'm going mad.
So yeah, back to the fan art.
Harry potter:
HarryxLuna
HarryxGinny
SnapexLily
LilyxJames
HermionexRon
HermionexHarry
(NO TO SIRIUS AND REMUS)
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I wish I knew what it was like to be in love. I've had three boyfriends, and I've never had the courage to kiss a single one, or hold their hands, or tell them my secrets.
He's a dumbass if he can't see what a good thing he had in you. And honey, I hate to be cliche and stalker-y [because I keep commenting on your stuff n' all . . . ] BUT you deserve better. Heartbreak is never easy. It's hard when you get it from yourself. But you can remedy that with time. It's harder still when it comes from someone else, let alone someone you love. That takes a lot of time, and a lot of tears, and a lot of long nights.
But you're a proud member of the female race. You can handle anything. I have complete faith in you. And that's saying something. I've lost faith in humanity as a whole.
He's a dumbass if he can't see what a good thing he had in you. And honey, I hate to be cliche and stalker-y [because I keep commenting on your stuff n' all . . . ] BUT you deserve better. Heartbreak is never easy. It's hard when you get it from yourself. But you can remedy that with time. It's harder still when it comes from someone else, let alone someone you love. That takes a lot of time, and a lot of tears, and a lot of long nights.
But you're a proud member of the female race. You can handle anything. I have complete faith in you. And that's saying something. I've lost faith in humanity as a whole.